I Cried Out Loudly To The Lord To Heal Me…
By Sis Sarah Tan Hui Shyn
Hallelujah! In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I bear testimony.
I am Sarah Tan. Today, I want to share with you the love and blessings that God has given me through my illness.
Tummy Aches That Would Not Go Away
Last year, when I was in Primary 1, in the month of February, I started having very bad tummy aches. They were no ordinary tummy pain. The pain would be there for the whole day and it was excruciating. My stomach was so painful that I could hardly walk. In fact, I had to crawl. This went on for months. Doctors could not find the cause of it. They thought it was psychological. As I suffered, my parents were feeling very worried. They were at their wit‘s end. I stopped going to school. Everyday, I would be in pain. There were no pain-free periods for me and I was in and out of hospital with no diagnosis. Day and night, I was in pain. Life was no longer normal for me. I longed for the day when I could carry my school bag to school, but everyday, I just stayed at home in pain and listened to the school bus pass by. I missed my friends.
Hanging on by a thread
Whenever I was in pain, I cried out to the Lord loudly to heal me. I even wrote notes to God to ask Him to heal me and posted them on my cupboard. However, God’s help came very slowly. I felt like killing myself, but my mum told me that God was listening to our prayers. He is faithful. He was working on it. I just need to be patient. However, deep down, my mum was very frightened. She thought I would die. She cried a lot, but she was always there for me. There were times when mum felt very depressed and weak in her faith, but she knew that if she gave up, I would suffer. As a mother, she knew she had to cling on to God, so that her child would be given the best. We held on to God everyday.
At last, a diagnosis to the Tormentor
Meanwhile, I was growing thinner and thinner. I could hardly eat as the pain grew worse. Finally, I had endoscopes. I was diagnosed as having chronic gastritis. My stomach walls and esophagus were inflamed. There were superficial ulcers on the stomach walls. At last, I was given the right treatment. However, the pain did not disappear immediately. I had to endure it. Encouraging verses and miracles of Jesus from the Bible helped me go through this tough period. I found comfort in the story of Jarius and the woman who bled for 12 years. I am able to understand the feelings of the sick and the suffering.
I want to thank God for giving me a not-so-painful day at the Universal Studio when I was in Japan. I was able to enjoy the rides. Each day is a blessing from God. My tummy took half a year to recover.
The battle intensified
Just as I thought everything was working well for me, I fell ill again. In May this year, I came down with a bad cold, followed by a bout of rashes. On my birthday, 2 June, I collapsed. My whole body felt weak and my hands and legs could not move. I was paralyzed for 4 hours. I had frequent paralysis attacks. I went for the MRI and had many blood tests done. Doctors thought I might have Basilar Migraine or Periodic Paralysis. Whenever I had the attack, I had to be rushed to the hospital for blood tests – to test for potassium deficiency. If I had no paralysis attacks, I would be feeling very sick, weak and irritable. I had very bad headaches and fainting spells. In the midst of my meals, my legs would be paralyzed. It happened everyday. One day, when I woke up, I could not walk at all. I regained my movement only after 3 to 4 hours. It was scary. I got weaker everyday. Doctors from Gleneagles, KK Hospital, NUH and the Chinese physicians from the Changi Hospital could not find a cure for me. My father spent hours searching the Internet for medical help. I was very frightened. I was very ill, and cried everyday. There was no relief, no help. We were fighting the unknown.
God is found when you seek Him wholeheartedly
One day, Aunty Daisy called my mum. She encouraged my mummy to seek the Lord wholeheartedly. They were on the phone for a long, long time. The following week, on a Tuesday, my teacher called my mum to say that I was very ill in school. My mum picked me up. Instead of sending me to the doctor, she brought me straight to church. Together with Aunty Daisy, we prayed in church. I called out to the Lord to heal me. Miraculously, after the prayer, for the first time, I felt well. There was relief for me.
After that, I went to church daily after school to pray. I could feel that I was getting better each day. Back home, whenever I felt unwell, my mum would tell me to go into the room to pray on my own. She said that I must learn to rely on God myself. I must help myself. I listened to her. I prayed long and earnestly. I would pray for 10 to 15 minutes. I learned to turn to God for help independently.
This time, unlike last year, God listened to our prayers very fast. I saw God’s miracle. I recovered without medication and doctors’ help. I see the power of God with my own eyes. Now, I take every prayer seriously. God is found when you seek Him wholeheartedly.
God is very close to me. When we draw near to Him, He will draw near to us. I had a special experience last month in Suzhou. We were supposed to visit a temple, which was part of our tour itinerary. My parents did not tell me we were entering a temple. The place did not look like one at all. While waiting at the entrance for the tour guide, I ran to my mum. I told her I felt uneasy. My exact words to her were, “I cannot go in. The Holy Spirit stops me.” My mind told me that the Holy Spirit was talking to me, stopping me from entering the temple. I stood there and prayed silently. The Holy Spirit is like a teacher, telling me what to do and what not to.
I am a very blessed child. God is guiding me. His Spirit and love is with me. Although I have suffered much, I have grown spiritually. God has, in His love, let me experience Him. I am well now.
My parents and I would like to thank the preachers, deacons, deaconesses, Aunty Daisy, my little church friends and all of you aunties and uncles for your prayers, help and encouragement.
May God bless everyone of you with good health.